Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty fair day today.
Firstly,I woke up and I ate a quick breakfast before doing my personal PC work.Again,despite some connection problems,I managed to get everything done.I also did not have too many e-mails to read so I got it done in under 1/2 an hour.
I really didn't have too much to do.I only ran a couple of errands today.One for myself and one for my mom.The one that I did for myself was that I went to check up on a friend who had just checked out of the hospital but his live in girlfriend had informed me that he was at a doctor's office getting a check-up.I said okay and I left.I went to a local supermarket for my mom to pick up a couple of things that my mom wanted me to get.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I tried to once again relax but couldn't.I was feeling really restless and jittery though I was also feeling tired at the same time.I just couldn't lay down or even sit down to take it easy.I am hoping that this passes and I will be able to relax again.
Last night,I went out for a short to see some of my friends at the place where I entertain people.Unfortunately,the night didn't go all too well because one of the people saw that I was not being myself.I know that lately I haven't been myself lately and I have been really down.Though I am okay,I am still feeling the rut of sadness that has been plaguing me for the past few weeks.I have been hoping that this will soon pass but it looks like that it isn't.I am hoping that this sadness spell passes soon and I will be back to my old self again.I feel that I am in a hopeless case(though I know that there is no such thing as hopeless when it comes to human beings in ruts)and that there may be no way out.If anyone out there is reading,I would appreciate some advice on how I can overcome this.I have been going through drug withdrawal from my previous medication and I am already getting tired of being in this.If anyone can help me,please help.Thanks.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a bit and I decided to post my day on here.Overall,a pretty fair day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I have been having the temptation to watch pornography since the day began but I haven't been doing that.I have been closing the internet each and every time the temptation comes up.I might just close the net off if the temptation does not die down soon.I don't want to watch porn because,as I have stated previously,pornography is garbage and it is also unhealthy eye candy.I am hoping that the temptation does soon because I don't want to get myself into trouble.Any prayers would be appreciated.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ