Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and since I had nothing to do today,I decided to relax and take it easy.
I watched a couple of classic TV episodes on a DVD set that I have and I also enjoyed a beer that was in the refrigerator.I am not worried about my meds.By the time that I have to take them,the alcohol from the beer would have worn off as it takes four hours for alcohol to leave the body.I just felt that I should enjoy one as I haven't had a beer in a long time.After that,I laid down in bed and read a chapter in a book that I have been reading and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.After that,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from the DVD set that I have.I also did a little bit more personal PC work.After a while,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Today,I fell into sin by giving into temptation.I gave into the temptation to fantasize and lust after other men when sexual images clouded my mind,which tempted me to manipulate my genitals,and at the moment of orgasm,I masturbated the rest of the way.I really felt miserable and after I washed my hands,I immediately went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall while asking for the forgiveness.When I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.I went through the rest of the day just catching up on some things that needed to be done.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I really need all the support that I can get as I fell today and need everything that I can get in the way of support,both prayerful and positive verbal.Please leave me something encouraging in the comments section as I need positive verbal support as much as I need prayerful support.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of a visit with my caseworker to discuss some personal stuff,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ