Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and when I was finished,I laid down to read for a while and after that,I headed out.
I only had two things on my agenda for today.I first went to a local restaurant to pick up a job application and after that,I went to a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things for my evening meal tonight.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I did some more personal PC work.After that was done,I prepared a light evening meal.
After eating,I relaxed and enjoyed some music.I also had a conversation with a friend over the phone.After that,I did a little bit more reading.Later on,I started to get ready for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and my most difficult struggle of the two,SSA.The SSA struggle can be a very difficult struggle.It can get even more tougher as the days go on and on.What makes the struggle get even more difficult is when you hear in the news about same-sex marriages,same-sex couplings and unions and also,children who want to change their gender identity,such as boys wanting to be girls and girls wanting to be boys.I sometimes wonder why can't they leave what our sovereign Lord and creator,our Heavenly Father,made and created just the way it is.I feel that the creator plays a role in who is born male or female and that these children should learn to be satisfied with what their gender identity is and embrace their gender identity.Why can't they do that?The thing is if they were meant to be male,they should accept their male identity and embrace it and not try to change it.The same thing is also applied to one born a female.Not only that,it is also the way our culture is trying to redefine marriage and family arrangements.They're trying to redefine it so two members of the same gender can marry and also,have a family where there are two fathers and two mothers.The thing is that no child,either male or female,should be without both a father and a mother as that is not what the family and marital arrangements were intended for nor made for by our creator,our Heavenly Father who created humans and also,the marital and family arrangements in the beginning when he did create it all.It does make the SSA struggle difficult as when I see and hear these things in the news,it disillusions me.I am struggling and trying to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father,but things like this make doing the right thing very difficult.I am also trying to learn to accept and embrace my gender identity and I am also trying to go through the process to heal from the wounds that are the root cause of my SSA struggles and also,I am trying to overcome SSA successfully like many others I have heard about have done successfully.Today,I was overwhelmed by temptations to fantasize and lust after other men,but fought not to give into these terrible temptations.With what I said above,I see that our culture is getting warped by the day and it's getting worse and worse with no sign of it ever getting better.I want to do the right thing,but my sinful fleshly nature wants me to do the opposite of the right thing.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires own me.I want to own them and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,I am still in need of your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need your prayers and encouraging comments.Please continue praying for me.Please also leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your prayers and continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ