Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and since I had no place to go and nothing to do,I stayed home and I watched a couple more holiday themed DVD's.After that was done,I did some more personal PC work.After that,I watched a little bit of TV.After that,I did some more personal PC work.
I had a light meal tonight and when I was finished eating,I watched a few more holiday themed DVD's.As the evening was getting later,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of the two for me.Right now,within the next week,I will be starting my new therapy.I will be meeting with a psychiatrist at a rehab center next Tuesday.I am hoping that this new therapy will work out for me.I need to let go of the unresolved anger,resentment and trauma issues that have been holding me back from getting the real healing that I so desperately need.I am a little nervous,though it is a week away.I am hoping that I can finally let go of the unresolved negative issues in my life so I can transcend and start to discover the real healing that I desperately need.I am also hoping that it will stop the constant harassment of sexual images of men clouding my mind when least expected and that the temptations to fantasize and lust after other men will also stop.I have begun to realize that these are the issues that have been holding me back and that is why I get plagued by the repeated sexual images.Due to the unresolved negative issues,I have been held back from the real healing I need to finally start becoming the man that I am meant to be and to finally have my true identity,which is man/male,finally come to the surface.Of course,I also still need to rely on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ as I can't attain these things without them taking the lead and leading me away from all of this negative stuff.I also need to get the trust issues resolved so I can start trusting people again as that also has been holding me back from feeling the positive feelings that I need to feel in order to feel loved,appreciated and also,trusting of others.I am learning little by little,but I am hoping to get a lot out of life after I let go and transcend.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,I would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.It's very important to me.Please continue to pray for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ