Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished showering,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I finally received a phone call back from the mechanic who put my tires on and we set yup to have my brake pads put on today.After I hung up,I got dressed and I headed over to his garage.After the pads were on and I paid him,I headed for the bank to withdraw a little bit of money.After that,I went over to a friend's place to see how he was as I hadn't heard from him in a while.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was finished,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched another classic TV episode from a DVD set that I have.I also did some more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am going to share something that I have learned all too well in the SSA struggle.The struggle gets more difficult by the day.Satan and his minions try to get those who worship the true God,the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,to go against the sovereign Lord and creator's perfect laws,especially the laws regarding,but not limited to,sexuality.Those of us who struggle with SSA have many obstacles in front of us.The most difficult obstacle is the fight and struggle to remain sexually sober.I know this to be true because I am always struggling to remain sexually sober.I am learning that the struggle to remain sexually sober,especially where SSA is concerned,is a very difficult one in and of itself.Temptations galore are always hitting those of us who struggle.The temptations very from being tempted to fantasize and lust after other members of our own gender,to being tempted to go out to seek out other members of our own gender to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that we have with,or another really big temptation,which is to watch porn themed to that sort of thing.Yes,we who struggle with SSA have a lot on our plates and it gets even more difficult by the day.Today,I must report that I was tempted after getting out of bed to act out by fantasies and lusting after other men.I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I also asked that my Heavenly Father silence the evil voices telling me to manipulate my genitals to images of men.I prayed real hard and didn't cease praying until these things died down.When I was finished praying,I felt better and also,that my Heavenly Father gave me what I asked for.Still,despite this,I still need the prayers of those who check my blog regularly and I also still need the positive verbal support of all of you.I need your support day in and day out.Please continue to pray for me.Please continue to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ