Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and worked on my personal PC work.I had to stop it for a while to drop my grand-niece off at work.After that,I went straight home to finish it.

I then took a quick shower to clean up and I watched a few YouTube videos.After that,I went back out to do a few things I needed to do.

I turned in some bottles at a local bottle and can return center.I then headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy a few things that I needed.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and watched a couple more YouTube videos.I then had a light evening meal and I did some more personal PC work.

I then headed out to a local 7-11 to buy a couple more things and headed straight home once I was done.

When I got home,I relaxed and did some more personal PC work and later prepared to retire for the evening.A pretty good day overall.

Two nights ago,I shared that I was trying to seek out healthy and affirming relationships with other men and how I was failing.Well,a close friend of mine and blog follower gave me some helpful advice that I truly appreciated.It was upbuilding in a friendly, loving and spiritual way.It was also loving advice that I also needed.It made me wake up that I need to work on my relationship with my Heavenly Father mostly than with other humans.While my therapy is doing well,I also need to seek out Christian therapy as this might help me get back on the right track and help me in my working on and with my relationship with my Heavenly Father.I have to start that right now and hopefully,I will feel better in the long run.

I've been wanting to seek Christian therapy and counseling for a long time,but keep procrastinating.I think that I'm scared to seek it or maybe I am not too sure about it.We just had a new pastor fill in the previous pastor's spot in my church and he seems nice.I've been meaning to ask him if he'd like to meet with me for something,but have been too fearful of it or not knowing how I should ask.I have also been meaning to call this other pastor that I know,but again,the same fears and uncertainty have been coming upon me and I procrastinate even further.I don't know how to go about this and I also don't know what to expect or anticipate.I don't know what could be wrong with me.I want to seek and pursue this,but my fears and uncertainty keep coming back.I am thinking of making this step maybe tomorrow or Monday.Please pray that I make this step and that I can get the right Christian therapy and counseling.Your prayers mean a lot to me and also,please continue to leave me some positive and encouraging words in the comments section,which includes more spiritually upbuilding comments.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual.I hope to get a lot out of it and learn to live by the lessons learned.FJ