Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I got up and washed up real quickly.I then got dressed and headed for work.

The work day went well.After it was over,I stopped at the local Target to pick up something that I really needed.After that,I went over to a local supermarket to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed and checked my e-mail and after that,I vacuumed the rugs in the house and showered quickly afterwards.I then started to heat up my evening meal and relaxed while waiting for it to get done.I also checked out some videos online while doing so.

After my meal was finessed heating,I ate it and watched a few more videos online.I also did my personal PC work and after that was done,I did some online browsing for a while until I decided to retire for the evening.A very good day overall.

Tonight,I am still feeling sad by the state that I'm in.I have still been saying angry things to myself under my breath and there is nobody there in front of me.I don't know why I keep doing this.I feel so terribly depressed and down as a result of this thing that I have,or should I say problem that I have.I'm afraid that if this keeps up,people will be afraid to come up to me to talk to me.I want people to come near me and not be afraid of me.I want to stop doing this,but don't know how to go about doing it.I have been asking for helpful advice from y'all,but nobody has stepped up.I need help and I need some helpful advice on how I can stop this.This anger and rage burning within me is making me miserable.The angry things I've been saying under my breath are making me miserable.Again,if anyone can help,please help me.I'm crying out for help and reaching out for support,but so far,nothing.Please help me.Please pray that I find help and that I break free from this terrible thing that is depressing me and making me sad so much.Please pray for me.Please leave any helpful advice in the forms or spiritual upbuilding and encouraging words.I really need both of things real badly and seriously.Thanks to y'all and Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

The holiday weekend starts tomorrow and I will have a four day weekend coming to me.I am planning to shop tomorrow and attend both church services on Sunday and the Christmas morning service on Christmas.I hope that this holiday weekend goes wonderfully for me.FJ