Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up early,had coffee,washed up and got dressed.I headed for work.

The work day,like yesterday,went well,but a little stressful.After it was over,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and did my personal PC work.After that,I showered quickly and got dressed to head out again to a local Burger King for a light evening meal.After I was finished with that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I changed into pajamas and I did more personal PC work.Later on,as it was getting late,I prepared for my evening retirement.A very good,but a little stressful,day overall.

Lately,I have been on a roller coaster ride regarding my SSA struggles.The stress that I've been having,mostly from my job,has really been getting to me.I have been getting tempted to act out by fantasizing and lusting.The desires have really been giving me a hard time.Sexual thoughts and feelings have been really clouding my mind,including images of men dancing within my mind.It's really been difficult.This struggle that I have gets more difficult when stressful situations become a factor.It all tempts me to fantasize and lust after other men and imagining myself in sinful and degrading sexual activity with them.The thing that I have to continually keep in mind is that acting out on these unnatural desires that I have will never get me the true fulfillment that I need.It will only make me feel fulfilled temporarily.What I need is to have healthy and authentic relationships with members of my own gender.That is what I need.The only real benefits of these is friendship,bonding,relating,identifying and connecting with other men in a healthy and authentic way,which is non-sexual.Sexual activity will never give me the real and true fulfillment that I need,but only friendships and relating,alongside identifying and healthy authentic connections is what I truly need.I don't need nor want sex,just friendships with other guys.That is all that I need as I really and seriously want to heal from these unnatural desires that I have.

Please continue to pray for me.Pray that I find and get these types of relationships with other men.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding posts and encouraging words.Please leave me positive verbal support.I really need that alongside the prayers.Thanks to y'all for your continued support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is the start of the weekend,which I'm glad for after the stress of the last few days on the job,where Sunday will be church as usual.FJ