Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.

Today,I woke up in the mid morning and had my usual coffee,but before I could do anything,I washed up real quickly and got dressed as I had to take my live-in grand-niece to work and after that,I bought a few slices of pizza from a local pizzeria.After eating them,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.I also went to a local supermarket to pick up a few things for my dinner tonight.After that,I headed straight home.

When I got home,I put the stuff away and relaxed while doing my personal PC work.After that was done,I vacuumed the rugs in the house and also vacuumed the floors.After that was done,I showered and cleaned my body and after that,I heated up my evening meal.

After eating,I did some more personal PC work.Later on,as the evening was winding down,I prepared for my evening retirement.A pretty good day overall.

The stress of the past week has really made my SSA struggles difficult.I have been tempted to act out on these unnatural desires that I have.Today,I did give into these terrible temptations again,but felt so terrible about doing so that I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for doing so and even pleaded with him to be merciful towards me.Tears even started coming from my eyes as I prayed and prayed.I hate myself when I give into these terrible temptations of the flesh as when someone,such as myself,gives into them,they are only gratifying their own flesh and feeding their sinful nature rather than fighting and resisting them and also,neglecting to ask the sovereign Lord and creator of all things,our Heavenly Father,to give them the strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations.The thing is that in Homosexuality and other types of unacceptable behaviors,the only things that get gratification are the flesh,the sinful nature that we all have and also,when they do these things,they reap corruption rather than reaping the positive spiritual things that come when someone works to fight and resist and ask for the strength to help them in their fighting and resisting.It also shows a lack of self-control on their part as self-control is necessary in fighting and resisting the sinful patterns and longings of the imperfect fleshly and sinful nature.Nobody said that the SSA struggle was going to be easy.I'm learning that day in and day out every day.

I still need advice.I would like for y'all to share what has worked for you.Maybe what worked for you can work for me.Please share as I would greatly appreciate that,which is why the comments section is there.Thanks very much in advance.

Please continue praying for me as I really need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support in the comments section,which can be both spiritually upbuilding posts and positive encouragement.Thanks to y'all in advance for your support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.

Tomorrow is church as usual and I hope that I get a lot out of it.I also hope that the rest of the day goes well for me,too.FJ