Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a wonderful meeting tonight at the church.The meetings are always wonderful.It is always great to get a lot of emotional baggage off of my chest.After the relapse I had today,I really needed that lift.
Earlier this afternoon,when I was home alone and my mom was at the beauty parlor,I was in such an emotional tirade over what has been happening to me this week,I wound up masturbating.My emotional state for much of the day was not very good.My niece giving me a hard time regarding the money that she owes for the insurance this month and my wanting to patch things up with somebody that is not even getting off of the ground by his lack of returning phone calls to me when I leave them on his answering machine.Still,I am holding on to the hope that it will get off of the ground soon enough.But my relapse really made me feel down but after I said a little prayer to ask for forgiveness and even forgave myself,I felt better.Still,the guilt did hang on to me for a while afterwards.But over the course of the day,I felt better.The meeting tonight was wonderful and it really made feel better.It is great that I found out about this group and to finally belong and be a part of a group is very rewarding and reassuring.I am looking forward to my next meeting next Wednesday night.
Tonight,when I got home,I got some rather distressing news.My little grandniece is sick.She has strep throat and scarlet fever.My niece had to pay some money because she does not have any medical insurance with her in between jobs at the moment.But my niece has already assured me that she will pay me back on Friday and that everything will work out.I am just hoping that my little grandniece gets better soon.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes smoothly.I am also going to be paying the car insurance tomorrow so I can keep it current.
That was my day today and my hoped for day tomorrow.FJ