Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I had a lot of ruuning around to do.I paid the water bill and I also mailed out my payment to the finance company that has a line of credit that I opened some time ago.After that,I went to my mechanic's garage to drop off a couple of CD's that I made for him.I also went to a local supermarket to buy a couple of things that my mom needed.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I hooked up the new DTV converter box that I bought yesterday at a local Target.It was just a test.Though I got a few channels in,I didn't get most of them.I did get one channel but the signal was lost and declared invalid.I unhooked the box and it is now back on regular TV.I did call the company that made the box and they simply told me that I need to buy a smart TV antenna for better reception.I did call Best Buy and they told me that there were none in stock and that they didn't know when they were going to get more into the store.I talked it over with my mom and we have to set aside some money when we can until we have enough money to buy one.We do have a long wait because the DTV conversion has now been pushed ahead to June 12th.So,we can just relax and take it easy for now.
After eating,I did some last minute personal PC work and I also watched an online video on YouTube.Overall,a pretty good day.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation.I masturbated to images of nude men with erections.I was also talking to myself imagining that there were some guys in the room and that I was agreeing to perform sexual favors for them.I did ask the creator to forgive me for that sin and I felt better.I am still feeling hopeful and I am counting on myself beating this.But I still need help in dealing with the feelings and I also need help in how to effectively cope with them.If anyone has any answers,I would appreciate them.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ