Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty good day today.
The work day went smoothly.I simply did my job in the amount of time that I had and when the day was over,I dropped the laundry off at the rehab center and I headed straight home.
When I got home,my mom got ready to do a little bit of shopping.She wanted to buy a few things for my grand-niece for her birthday and while she did that,I went to a local laundromat to dry my underwear,which only took 1/2 an hour.
After that,I went to pick my mom up from shopping and I also went to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up a few things there.After we were both done,we both headed straight home.
When we got home,my mom prepared dinner and I finished my personal PC work.It was a lot and despite a couple of issues with the browser,I got it done.
After eating,I registered a few bills at the Where's George site.I am also going to spend them in a minute after I am done here.
Though I am feeling okay,I am also feeling a little bit depressed.Why?Because I am going to be making a big step soon.I am making the step of letting go of my anger for my father and forgiving my father for all the hurt that he caused.At the moment,I really don't know how to go about this.I am still seeking answers and I am hoping to get them soon so I will know what to do.I am also hoping that it will work out.This is going to be a big step and I am hoping that everything works out for the better.I don't want to hold on to this anger anymore.I have become enslaved to this anger and I no longer want to be.Again,I am hoping that everything will work out for the better.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had a brief episode early this morning.An image crept up into my mind while I was still sleeping and it woke me up out of a deep sleep.After getting out of bed and going to the bathroom,I went back to bed to sleep a little bit more and there were no problems.I hope that I can get through tonight and tomorrow without a problem.
Tomorrow is simply a pick-up day.I hope that the pick up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ
2 comments:
Anger can be a big issue so hope and pray as you let it go and even forgive that you will experience freedom in an amazing way. These things take time often but worth it. They say holding on to anger only hurts the person doing it and I found that to be true. I am no authority but cheering for you in this part of your journey. Have a good day.
Stan
Thanks again for posting here. I will also keep this post in mind when I am ready to go about and do this. I do want to let go and I know that it isn't a very easy thing to do.
I do have to agree that holding on to anger only hurts the person doing it because I was feeling major depression(i.e.anger turned inward)for a long time as a result. I have been starting to feel a little bit better as a result of me wanting to let go of this anger and bitterness. I have been really talking about it and little by little, the depression has been winding down.
Thanks again Stan and I look forward to talking with you again in the near future.
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