Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
Today was my day off.I still had quite a bit to do.Firstly,I ate quickly and I did my personal PC work.It only took me almost an hour to do.I was glad to get it done.
After I ate lunch,I got cleaned up and dressed and I went to my appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor.
The session went well.We talked about anger and the issues that lead me to have the anger that I have.We also did an activity from a workbook that she had and it was pretty rewarding work.I left the session as if a 1,000 ton weight had been lifted off of me.We are going to continue discussing this at the next session.I am also going to work on this assignment during the time being so I can prepare ahead of time.After the session,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I decided to lay down while waiting for dinner to get done.While waiting,I listened to a free CD that I received today,which is about how to overcome depression and anxiety.It was pretty inspiring and I am looking forward to overcoming these things.
After eating,I went back to the anger management group that I hadn't been too in a long time.It was wonderful to be amongst that group again.I told them about me wanting to let go of anger that I have towards my father and they wished me the best of success in this.I also informed them that I am thinking of going to visit with him in the near future.They did advise me that it would be better for me to stay elsewhere rather than at his house as a result of what he had done to me years ago.I said that I would take that into consideration and think about it.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a couple of things.After paying for them,I headed straight home.
Last night,I had a talk with my father.It was the second consecutive conversation that I had with him.It was a very pleasant conversation and we talked about my upcoming visit to him in the near future and he shared with me some information that I have to keep in mind when I go to the bus station to aquire a schedule of which cities in the state where he lives in are nearby him.Again,it was a pleasant conversation and after I hung up,I felt better that I did talk with him after I avoided talking with him for over a year.I talked with him last week also.I need to let go of the anger that I have for him.I need to let go,forgive him but not condone the wrong that he did.It isn't going to be easy but I do have to do that.It is about time that I did.I wanted to do it a long time ago but didn't know how.Now,I am learning how.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I had no problems.Nothing crept up into my mentality today.No cravings or images.I also had no desire to view any pornography.I feel pretty good as a result.I am hoping that I can get through tomorrow without any problems.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the day goes well.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ