Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better and my rocky road to recovery continues to go forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had a bowl of hot oatmeal for breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
After having a talk with my case worker,who came to the house,I was hoping to head out to the local K-Mart to pick up a few things,but something of a personal nature came up and I stayed home instead.I simply relaxed and took it easy for a while.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.I can always go to the local K-Mart tomorrow on the way home from group.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
I am feeling much better at the moment.Much of my painful symptoms are starting to fade and my stomach feels much better.It was a very painful experience that I had when I was battling that terrible "stomach flu" and putting up with the pain and all the other stuff associated with this terrible illness.I am just hoping that I don't have to go through it all again.It was an awful and painful experience and I am glad that I am feeling much better.I should be back to where I should and want to be in the next few days.
While my rocky road to recovery continues to go forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with it.Aside from that,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on God and his son Christ Jesus more whenever this struggles seems to be getting out of control for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle and that is good.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation early this morning when I masturbated to sexual images of men.I really felt lousy after that and I asked God to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel like a weight had been lifted off of my shoulders.The root cause of this fall was all the emotional stress that I went through over the last few days.I had no home phone nor internet for three days and coupled with the complications caused by that terrible "stomach flu" that I went through caused me to fall and give into those terrible temptations.I really need to start all over again in working hard to resist all temptations that come at me.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and also,that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they provide.
Tomorrow,I have my usual Spirituality group and the usual lunch at the local kitchen.As for the rest of the day,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ