Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues going onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had much planned for today.
After getting some gas at a local gas station,I headed over to a local hair place to get my hair cut and after that was done,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to do some much needed grocery shopping.After that was done,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a few things that the local Super Wal-Mart didn't sell and also,something that I forgot to pick up there.After that was done,I headed over to the nearby Dollar Tree store to pick up one more thing.After that was all done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the groceries away and awaited my ex brother in law to come over and help me fix the toilet,where the flusher knob broke from the mechanism.After he left,I heated up a can of soup for dinner and a couple slices of Texas garlic toast.Overall,a pretty good day.
While my rocky road to recovery continues going onward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggles with BPD even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate twice in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened at two separate intervals by throbbing erections.I tossed and turned on both of these and they softened.Though I escaped this double whammy,I had to stay on guard all day as the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have can come at me at all sides when least expected.I really have to stay on guard and be watchful.I did keep busy all day by getting out and doing what I had to do,I still got tempted throughout the day and I really had to use all of my strength to fight and resist every temptation that came at me.I also kept up in prayer to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ whenever temptation reared it's ugly head.I am also continuing to ask for prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.Both your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in the fight and make me even more determined to overcome this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ