Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Spirituality group and it was a wonderful meeting.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after eating,I headed over to the local K-Mart and picked up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into a sweat suit and I relaxed and took it easy for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues unabated,I am still in my daily struggle with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory of having BPD.My moods and/or emotions change by the day,or at times,by the minute/moment.I never know how they will be.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggle even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I again fell when I masturbated in the wee early morning hours.I really felt devastated after this fall.This was the second consecutive fall this week.I really had to ask God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me and I also begged for God to show me his mercy as this was my second consecutive fall this week.I did feel better,but I now know that I have to work on staying strong and continue to fight and resist all urges that come at me.Throughout the day,I was tempted again and again,but I stayed strong by asking God in prayer,in the name of his son Christ Jesus,to give me the strength too fight and resist all urges that came at me.It wasn't easy,but I did all of that today.I am going to have to make it a habit again to start regularly praying to God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help keep me strong in the face of these terrible SSA temptations.I am also continuing to ask that everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts to continue in prayer for me and also,to please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section as both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight against this terrible SSA and make me even more determined to overcome it.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Christ Jesus for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ