Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning to my phone ringing,but I didn't get out of bed right away.When the phone rang a second time this morning,I slowly started to get out of bed and I immediately returned the phone calls and after that was done,I had my usual 2 cups of coffee and when I was finished with that,I decided to have my usual quick breakfast right away and when I was finished with that,I had to wait awhile before taking my shower and when I did and was finished,I immediately got dressed and I walked over to the garage to pick up my car as what was wrong with it wasn't that bad.After picking it up,I took a little drive,but didn't stop anywhere.I headed for home after that.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and when it was late afternoon,I decided to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to watch a DVD that I popped into the DVD player and I relaxed while watching it.I also did a little bot more personal PC work and later on,I started preparing for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult for me.Today,after doing pretty good the last few days,I fell by giving into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men and I did manipulate my genitals to these images.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked for forgiveness in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and I left nothing out.I also accepted full and total responsibility for my fall and when I was finished,I felt better as I truly knew and believed that I was forgiven and that the slate was wiped clean by my Heavenly Father.I went through the rest of the day with no problems,but I need to prevent falls from happening as I do have the power to prevent falls before they happen.I need to get to my Heavenly Father and ask for strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations when they come around.I am really serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I want to continue to be free and stay free.I don't want to give Satan and his minions what they want,which is break the laws that my Heavenly Father set forth in his sacred word,the Holy Bible,as his laws are perfect and flawless.Fellow blog followers,I am again asking that you continue to keep me in your prayers.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.I need to be reaffirmed and reassured that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Yes,I do.I need all the support that I can get.Please continue praying for me.I also ask that you please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ