Tonight,I am feeling okay.I had a pretty so-so today.
The work day went as well as expected.I did my work but I was in a funk the whole day.The funk actually made the work seem difficult.I did do a little bit of talking today with some of the social club staff today and they could tell that I was in a negatively funky state.I was in this funk throughout the entire morning.I was also saying some bad things to myself and this really scared me.Fortunately,I made it through the day and I managed to make it home after I was finished with my job.
When I got home,I had to leave again to run an errand for my mom and I also had to do something for myself.After doing these things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
I took a nap for the rest of the afternoon and the afternoon was very quiet.I didn't turn on the TV nor did I turn on anything that was noisy.I also had a fan going on because the day was a little humid.I didn't sleep for too long but I was still feeling funky.Though the funk had let up some,I was still feeling the depressive feelings that I have been feeling.I am hoping that I can get through this.It has been very rough and I am already at the point where I can't stand it anymore.I am hoping to get through this funk and I know that I can't go through this alone.If anyone has any advice,please share.Thanks.
After I ate dinner,I watched the evening news for a while and after that,I called the Drop-In Center and talked with them for a while.It was good to talk with them for a while and after hanging up,I did feel minimally better.I will be calling them tomorrow unless something comes up.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I am not having any temptations to watch any pornography.I am feeling like I am accomplishing something here but I don't know what it could be.The minute that I am done posting here,I am going to visit elsewhere and afterwards,close off the internet.
Tomorrow is a simply a pick-up day.I am hoping that the pick up goes smoothly.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ