Tonight,my road to recovery continues positively.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and bathed.After my bath,I dried up and had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of my day.
My original plans were to go to Best Buy,which is in the next county,but changed my mind.I realized that it was the day after Christmas and there was going to be a lot of people out today returning and exchanging things and what not.Also,as a result of that,I knew that the traffic was going to be heavy so I chose to stay close to home today.I had only a few things to do and I got those done.
I went only to a couple of local stores to pick up a few things that were needed for the home and there wasn't too many to pick up.After paying for all of those things,I headed straight home and I stayed there for the rest of the day.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery from bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies continues positively,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
On the subject of my struggles with SSA,I was tempted early this morning while still in bed.I had a morning erection and the temptation to masturbate was really strong.I just kept tossing and turning in bed to fight off the temptation and though it was really difficult,I actually succeeded and I fell back to sleep again as the erection died down.I did get up an hour and a half later and still really felt nothing as I got up.I don't know what I had in me to resist that temptation,but whatever it was,it worked.My temptation to act out in that way is nil at best for the rest of the day,but I know that temptation will rear it's ugly head at me again and maybe next time,the temptation to give in will be really strong.I have to keep fighting the temptation whenever it comes around and I will need some more positive reinforcement.If anyone out there who reads and follows my blog is reading this,please give me any advice or suggestions that might help me.I would really appreciate that.Thanks.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ