Tonight,my road to recovery continues a little bit better.I had a pretty decent day today.
Today,I woke up later than the time that I was hoping to get up and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I simply did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I proceeded to get on with the rest of the day as I had only a couple of things planned.
The only things on my agenda was to withdraw some money for my mom and to pay a couple of bills.I went to pay my bills first.I paid both my car insurance and a credit card bill today.After they were paid,I went to the bank to withdraw the money for my mom.After that was done,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed while registering all the money that I had withdrawn from the bank for my mom.After that,I paid for my DirecTV bill over the phone.I relaxed for a while and watched a little TV.I only have a few more bills to pay this month and I will be paying those at the proper time.I also have to renew my driver's license this month as it will expire on my birthday.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty decent day.
Though my recovery got slightly better today,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies and their symptoms.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I hope that my recovery continues to improve in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation last night for the fifth consecutive time by masturbating and it was both emotional and sexual.This time,I didn't beat myself over that.I did feel miserable,but the advice that the Christian counselor gave was pretty helpful.This morning,I was tempted to act out by masturbating again as I had a morning erection that was really stiff.I simply fought the temptation by tossing and turning because I didn't want to give in to that habit for the sixth consecutive time.After a short time,my penis softened and I slept a little longer.Still,having that temptation was scary as I had to fight it with all the strength that I had.Right now,I don't have any temptation and while that is good,I still need to be on guard whenever temptation rears it's ugly head again.Once again,if anyone out there reading my blog regularly can give me any helpful suggestions or advice on fighting the temptation,please do so.I would greatly appreciate that.Anything that any of you might have done that helped you beat this or resist this will be appreciated.Thanks so much in advance.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I will be attending.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ