Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up later than I wanted to and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After having my breakfast,I got dressed and proceeded to get on with the rest of the day.
I had a pretty busy day planned.I had to go see the nurse practitioner over at the local hospital to get my new prescription and to hear the results of the medical tests that I had to go through at the orders of my general doctor.I was looking forward to this with a lot positive anticipation and enthusiasm.I was also hoping for some good news considering the tests.
The session went well and after I got my prescription,I headed for home.I also got the results of at least two of my tests.My blood work came back great as my cholesterol was low and my blood sugar was good.I am still pretty healthy and also,my cat scan revealed that I have a minor sinus problem and that is why I have headaches frequently.Since I can't take any over the counter decongestants as a result of my having high blood pressure,I will have to invest in getting Echinacea with GoldenSeal tea to take to relieve sinus pressure.I have to get some.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up some stuff that was needed for the home.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched some TV for a while.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours.I woke up with another erection in the middle of the night and my temptation to masturbate it away was very strong.The erection was also another throbber.I was breathing heavily to try to resist the temptation to masturbate the erection away as I really had the overwhelming desire to simply masturbate this away.I tossed and I turned,but finally decided to get up as I had to use the bathroom.As I walked to the bathroom,my penis softened and after I used the bathroom,I went back to sleep.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.While I did escape this,the temptation to act out will rear it's ugly head again.I am not waiting for it,but I know that I have to stay on guard as that temptation will again rear it's ugly head.I just have to hang in there and remain strong whenever that happens.I know that I am imperfect human,but I can't let myself be enslaved to sin or act out on my desires.I have to let my imperfect state know that I am the boss of my body and my body is not my boss.I have to keep reminding myself that I can never let my sexuality own me.I have to let my sexuality know that I own it.It is going to be a challenge,but I am more than able to live up to that challenge.I have to remain strong and let my body know that I am it's boss and not the other way around.
Tomorrow,I have an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor and I am hoping that the session goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ