Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up a little later than usual and bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I relaxed for much of the rest of the morning before getting dressed to get ready for the appointment that I had today.
I had an appointment with my sexual abuse support counselor today and I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.It has been several weeks since my last session with her and I wanted to update her on what has been going on in my life since the last session.I had a lot to talk with her about and again,I was looking forward to this.
The session went wonderful.It was really a great talk that I had with her.I shared with her everything that was going in my life,including the medical tests that I recently went through.After the session,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up a few things that were needed for the home.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery is continuing,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery continues and that I start improving in the near and distant future.
Regarding my struggles with SSA,today was the first day in a while that I had no morning erections.I had really no temptation to act out today as my temptation was almost non-existant.I only had a small urge to act out,but I managed to fight this and I was okay for the rest of the day.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.Though I was happy about this,I still have to keep on guard and be watchful as temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I escaped today,but tomorrow and the near future are other days.One day may be good,but the others may be not so good.I just have to keep fighting this when it does indeed come around.Temptation can happen when least expected and when it happens,I will have to fight it.The fight with temptation is never an easy fight,but it can be won if I can remain strong and keep fighting when it comes.Again,I may have escaped today,but there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I know that being tempted isn't sinful,but it is sinful to give into the temptation.I still have to keep that in mind.
Tomorrow,I have a spirituality group that I must attend and I am hoping that it goes well.As for the rest of the day,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ