Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly e-mailed a friend of mine and after that was done,I headed out to my monthly Men's Network group meeting.I was looking forward to this meeting with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The meting was wonderful.We had some small talk and after the talk,we watched a DVD of a guy speaking on stage about Jesus Christ and his father God and all.After the meeting was over,I headed for home.
On the way home,I made a few stops.I first stopped at a Salvation Army thrift store in the area and after that,I had myself a quick lunch over at Burger King.After that,I headed over to the drug store to pick up a couple of prescription refills and a few other things.After paying for all of that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and after I was done with that,I relaxed and watched a DVD after popping it into the DVD player.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping to continue feeling better very soon in the days and months ahead.
Regarding my SSA struggles,my temptation to act out was again minimal if nil at best.I had no temptation nor urge to act out in any way,shape or form.Though I did escape today,I still need to be on guard and to be watchful.The temptation to act out will reemerge when least expected.I need to be on guard as the urge to indulge in masturbation when tempted can come strong and at times,feels unbearable.But I know that I do have a choice.But at times,the urge to masturbate can be strong and when it is,it can be pretty difficult to resist.The reason why it is so hard to resist or to overcome is because when anyone,male or female,masturbates,it does feel good as our genitals are simply soft skin tissue with no bones in them and it does feel good to rub or play with them until ejaculation.The good feelings that are experienced with that activity would make anyone yearn to feel them repeatedly by simply masturbating again and again.But I have to remain strong when that urge comes around.I have to resist the temptation to act out in that way as masturbation is a form of acting out and it doesn't matter whether it's emotional,sexual or both.Again,though it was good that I escaped today,tomorrow is another day and so is the day after that and so on.Each day is always a new challenge.
Tomorrow,I am hoping and planning to attend the morning's church service and in the early afternoon,I am hoping and planning to get my laundry done at the laundromat.As for the rest of the day,I have made no plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ