Tonight,my road to recovery continues unabated.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I bathed.After my bath,I dried up and had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and I headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service.I was looking forward to this with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.
The class was terrific.We watched 1/8 of a DVD about the history of the church and it was great.It was interesting to see how the Christian church got it's start and I was glad to have attended this.I will be attending each and every class until the summer.I have been enjoying these classes and I always look forward to each and every one of them.After that,we all got ready for the service afterwards.
The service was very wonderful.The fellowship before and after the service was terrific.After all of that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a couple of things and after paying for them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I had a quick lunch,got my laundry together to go to the laundromat to get my laundry done and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed over to the laundromat.
On the way there,I stopped at a local 7-Eleven to pick up something to munch on while I was at the laundromat.After paying for that,I headed straight for the laundromat and I started my laundry the minute that I saw that a machine was open for use.After putting my laundry in and starting the washer,I sat down and relaxed and enjoyed my munchies.
It only took a little over an hour,but I managed to get my laundry done and after folding it all when dried,I bagged it all and I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out my laundry and after that,I relaxed and watched a little TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.
Though my recovery continues unabated,I am still,on a one day at a time basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts improving soon in the near and distant future.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was tempted in the wee early morning hours when an erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.It was very stiff and it was also a throbber.As usual,when I get an early morning erection,I simply tossed and turned until my penis softened.I was tempted to masturbate that away,but I stayed strong and I fought that urge to masturbate.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out was minimal if nil at best.While I escaped the rest of the day,I know that the temptation to act out in any way,shape or form will come back when least expected.I just have to keep fighting that urge when it comes and I hope that I can beat the urge again when it comes.Temptation can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I just have to be prepared when that does happen.Temptation is an ugly master and it can make you want to do things that are wrong and inappropriate,especially when it comes to that ugly demon known as SSA.I have to always keep in mind that I own my sexuality and that my sexuality doesn't own me.I am going to continue to learn to make my body a slave and not be a slave to my body.It is a difficult fight,but I know that I can win the fight and keep choosing to resist and fight temptation rather than give in.It will be difficult,but I know that I can do it.
Tomorrow,I have a couple of group meetings that I need to attend.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans and hopes for the day ahead.FJ