Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the late morning and I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed.I had a few things planned for today and I wanted to get them done.
I first went to the local Sears to pay my credit card bill and after that,I headed over to a tax office in another city within the region that I live in New York state and after that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up some stuff that my mom needed.After paying for those items,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put all the stuff away and I relaxed and watched a little bit of TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.
Though my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of bipolar depression with schizophrenic tendencies.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also taking my medication as directed.I am hoping that my recovery starts to improve soon as I have been on an emotional roller coaster ride for quite a while.I am hoping that it stops soon.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted in the wee early morning hours by a morning erection,which woke me up out of a deep sleep.I was really tempted to masturbate that away,but I fought the temptation by tossing and turning until my penis softened.It was really tough,but I managed to resist successfully.For the rest of the day,my temptation to act out in any way,shape or form was minimal if nil at best.Though I escaped again this morning,I still need to be on guard and be watchful.The temptation to sin by masturbating away an erection can be very strong and the urge to give into the temptation can be even stronger.Temptation is an ugly demon indeed.It is just as ugly as the SSA demon.I still have to keep on guard when that happens.Today was one thing.But there is always tomorrow and the day after that and so on.I just have to keep fighting the temptation when it does rear it's ugly head at me.I just have to keep fighting,to stay strong and continue to resist when it happens.If any of you who read and follow this blog want to offer any words of encouragement,please do so.Thanks.
Tomorrow,I have to buy a few money orders to mail out some important letters.After that,I have no other plans.But whatever I choose to do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ