Tonight,my road to recovery continues onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Before I report on how my day went today,I want to catch up on yesterday as posting my day yesterday slipped my mind as I had so much on my mind yesterday.
Yesterday,I woke up in the mid morning and I bathed.After bating,I had breakfast and coffee and did part of my personal PC work before getting dressed and going to my Monday afternoon group,which went great.After that,I headed straight home as I had really nothing else to do.
I simply stayed home and relaxed while watching some TV and did some recommended Holy Bible reading before turning in for the night and anticipating the events of the next day.
Now that I am all caught up,now to today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and after giving mom her medication for the morning,I bathed.After my bath,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After that,I did my personal personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the mechanic's garage to get my car checked out to see if it needs any work to pass inspection next month,which it does as I need some minor brake work.After that was done,I headed over to the public library to print something.After that was done,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local supermarket to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched a little bit more TV.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading in as well.
While my recovery continues onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and the emotional roller coaster ride that goes with the territory.As I have stated before,I never know how my mood will be from one day to the next,or,from one minute to the next.It is always a non-stop thing with me in regards to my emotional make-up.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my struggle even more difficult.I never know what sounds that I might hear that others can't hear.When it starts to become seemingly too unbearable,I always turn to God and his son Jesus Christ whenever that happens.I simply talk about these mental health struggles with both God and Christ and not only do I feel a tad better,but they help is sustaining me.It is simply a matter of talking it out and throwing everything on them both and feeling a little bit better.Again,it shows that I am not alone in this struggle.Thanks to both God and Christ for everything they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I gave into temptation in the wee early morning when I masturbated.I really felt bad for that as it was a very crushing weight on me.After it was all over,I asked God in the name of his son Jesus Christ to forgive me for my sin and after that,I felt better as God has now forgotten my sin and has wiped the slate clean.I do have to continually keep in mind that the temptation to act out on these unnatural desires that I have,no matter what form that it comes around in,can rear it's ugly head when least expected.I now have to really stay on guard and be watchful as the temptation can come when I really don't expect them to come.I don't really want to act out on these unnatural desires that I have because God didn't intend for sexuality to be used the way that they world is using as well as abusing it.God never intended for two members of the same gender to indulge in sinful sexual activity with each other.He created man and woman and that alone shows that he only approved of healthy and happy Heterosexuality and not Homosexuality.God through his sacred and inspired word,the Holy Bible,condemns such practices.It is as sinful as anything else that is sinful.I am going to really push myself to start relying more on both God and his son Jesus Christ whenever temptation rears it's ugly head.If I don't,I will continue to stumble and fall.I am also asking and appealing for those who read my blog regularly to pray for me that God continues to set me free from the chains of this destructive sinful pattern that is connected with the sinful and destructive sexual lifestyle known as the so called "Gay" lifestyle.Please pray for me and also,pray that I become determined to rely more on both God and his son Jesus Christ more whenever the struggles seems to be getting too impossible or unbearable.I would really appreciate that.Thanks to all of you for prayers offered and also,Thanks to both God and Christ for all they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But whatever I do,I hope that it gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my plans for the day ahead.FJ