Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed withe the rest of my day as I had a few things planned.
I first headed over to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group.I always look forward to these Thursday groups with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm as they fast approach.
The group meeting was wonderful.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen for lunch and after I was done eating,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local K-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few more things.After paying for them,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after spending a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and finished the rest of my personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever the struggle seems to be getting way too unbearable for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.With God and his son Christ Jesus leading the way,it shows that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to indulge in masturbation when yet another throbbing erection woke me up out of a deep sleep.I tossed to my left side and the erection softened within a couple of minutes.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting after images of men,and to indulge in fantasies of other men,and to also manipulate my genitals with these lustful and sexual images clouding my mind.I kept up in prayer all day to God and asked him in his son Christ Jesus' name for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations as they kept coming at me.I kept up in praying and each time I finished,I felt much stronger and also felt better.It also proves to me that God and Christ are both there ready to help me whenever I need them and that is wonderful.I am also again asking for prayers by all of you who continue to follow my blog and read the posts and also,please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.It is just that my blog gets quite a few visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments of an encouraging nature.I ask these things repeatedly because both your prayers and your encouraging words help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue to overcome SSA and also,to continue in my healing journey from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of your for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ