Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward.I had a pretty fair day today as a result of the terrible weather we have been having in my area.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed and did my personal PC work.After that was done,I simply relaxed and waited for my substitute case worker to come over.
After the session with my substitute case worker,I simply chose to stay home as it was yet another very rainy day and the winds were blowing.I also was feeling a little down as a result of the weather and I simply chose to relax and take it easy at home.I watched a couple of DVD's and that was it.There wasn't much for me to do as a result of the terrible weather that we were having.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward and forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.Today,I was feeling down as a result of the weather that we have been having.It has been rainy and really windy for the past few days and it will be through tomorrow.My down feelings were the result of the weather and also,having really nothing to do as a result of the weather.I am hoping that the weather starts improving real soon.I am also still dealing the hallucinatory effects of the schizophrenic tendencies that I have and that is making my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on God and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply talk about this particular struggle with God in the name of his son Jesus Christ and they both help in sustaining me.It shows that I am never alone in this particular struggle and that is wonderful.Thanks to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate in the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up for a while and I proceeded to get up and while I was doing that,the erection started softening and when my genitals were fully soft,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to lust after men,fantasize alongside the lusting and also,to manipulate my genitalia alongside all of these things.I kept up in prayer to God all day in the name of his son Jesus Christ and also asked him for strength to fight and resist all of these terrible temptations and I felt much stronger as I knew that God heard me and that was good.I am again asking for prayers from all of you who continually follow my blog and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I continually ask these things because my blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave any comments.Please don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue overcoming SSA and to continue in my healing journey from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both God and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
As for the weekend,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the weekend ahead.FJ