Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did 4/5 of my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that went as well as expected.After that was over,I stopped to get some gas at a nearby gas station.After that,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and when I was done with that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed for a bit and I finished my personal PC work.After that,I did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed,as usual,to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming and/or difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle in prayer to my Heavenly Father and I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ for strength to help get me through the difficulties of this psychiatric double whammy that I have and they both in keeping me sustained and level.It does make me feel a tad better knowing that my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ are there leading the way and keeping me a little more at ease.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection,though it didn't last very long.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed to use the bathroom and as I headed for the bathroom,the erection started to soften and when I was finished,my genitals were fully soft and I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in lusting and fantasies of other men and also,to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/full erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping alongside the temptation to fantasize and lust.I kept up in prayer to my Heavenly Father all day as these terrible temptations kept coming at me from all sides.I asked for strength to fight and resist in the name of his son Jesus Christ as these temptations kept coming at me and I felt better and much stronger when I finished praying each time.I also felt that I was heard and that my Heavenly Father gave me everything that I asked for.While I have been doing that,I am again asking for prayers from everyone who follows my blog and reads my posts here.Please continue praying for me as I am still going through this very difficult emotional time.I also ask that none of you be shy by leaving me an encouraging word or two in the comments section as I really need some words of encouragement really badly.My blog gets many visitors and curiosity seekers,but they rarely leave comments of any kind.Don't be shy and please leave an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.They both,your prayers and encouraging words,help keep me going in this fight and make me even more determined to continue in my goals to overcome this terrible and also,to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you who follow my blog for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ