Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
It is time to catch up on the last two days.I missed posting an entry yesterday and I want to catch up.
Yesterday,I had an appointment with my therapist and that session went great.Before that,I went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group and that meeting also went well.I also had lunch at a local kitchen after the group meeting was over.Later on in the afternoon,while I was home,I e-mailed my resume to somebody who is hiring in my area and I got an immediate phone call to have an interview set up today.I turned in for the night later on.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and after that was done,I got dressed up in a dress shirt,slacks and tie and eagerly awaited for the phone call to come.I waited for the call for most of the day and when it came,I met the interviewer at a local Tim Horton's and according to the interviewer,everything was great and that I will hear from them Monday morning at 9:00am.After it was over,I headed for the bank to withdraw some money that I needed and after I did that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of the dress clothes and into my casual clothes and headed out to give a little bit of money for something that I am paying on.After that,I got a half gallon of milk at a convenience store and got some gas at the gas pumps.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk and started to heat up something for dinner and while eating,I watched the evening news for a while and later on,after doing some more personal PC work,I paid a visit to a friend to see how he was doing.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or at other times,from one minute/moment to the next.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply,as a burden,take this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father in prayer.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through all the negatives of this struggle and they both help in sustaining me and also,they help keep me on a calm and level plain.It shows that I am not alone in this struggle and that does make me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,the temptation to masturbate came at me during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by another erection.I sat up for a while and proceeded to get out of bed and the erection started to soften.When it was fully softened,I went back to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,but today,it wasn't as bad as I had too much on my mind.I had the job interview and that really was wonderful and I kept busy throughout the day with other things and that took my mind off of my SSA struggles.The only thing that I ask is for all of you to please keep up praying for me as I am still going through a difficult time and also,please leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments.Your prayers and your encouraging words are very valuable to me and they do help in keeping me going in this struggle.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day yesterday and today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ