Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
After having a light lunch,I got a phone call and it was a spur of the moment job interview call to meet with the manager at a local restaurant in the early afternoon.I went to the interview after dressing up in dress clothes and they told me that would be in touch this coming Wednesday. After the interview,I left the restaurant I stopped at a gas station to get some gas in my gas tank.I headed straight home after that to change clothes.After that,I headed out to a friend's place in another area of the county where I live to check up on him.After spending a few minutes with him,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up something that I needed.After paying for that,I headed for a local Dollar Tree to pick up something else.After that,I picked up my laundry at my niece's house.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I put what I had bought away and I relaxed for a while.I also did some reading.
After eating,I watched the evening news for a while and I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.My moods and/or emotions vary by the day,or at other times,by the minute/moment within the same day.I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too difficult for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle to my Heavenly Father and throw it on him as a burden.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negative effects of this disorder and they both help in sustaining and also,they both help keep me on a calmer and level plain.It shows that I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get up out of bed and my genitals started to soften.When my genitals were fully soft,though it took a while,I went right back to bed and to sleep.Though I escaped this episode,I was tempted throughout the day to indulge in fantasies and lusting of other men,though not as much as I had been the last few days.I simply kept my mind on other things and simply doing what I had planned for today.Nothing sexual glanced through my mind.I simply kept my mind on other things and that helped get my mind off of anything sexual.Though I went through the day without any problems in regards to my SSA struggles,I am again asking that all of you please keep praying for me as I am going through this rough emotional time.I need prayers by all of you who follow my blog and read my posts.I also need words of encouragement by all of you alongside your prayers.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ