Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to visit with a locally living friend to see how he was doing.After spending a few minutes with,I headed over to a picnic that my church was having.I was looking forward to this occasion with a lot of positive anticipation and enthusiasm.This was to be my first church picnic since being reinstated as a member of my church last year.
The picnic was wonderful and I had some really great fellowship with everyone there.After being there for much of the day,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and I watched some TV.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving onward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from one day to the next,or a other times,from one minute/moment to the next.If having BPD wasn't bad enough,I also have schizophrenic tendencies and that makes my BPD struggles even more difficult.I am still attending my therapy sessions.I am also continuing to take my medication as directed.I am also still continuing to rely more on my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ whenever this particular struggle seems to be getting way too overwhelming for me to handle.I simply bring this particular struggle,as a burden,to my Heavenly Father in prayer whenever I feel that the struggle is seemingly getting way too difficult for me to handle.I ask him in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help get me through the negatives and they both help in sustaining me.They also help keep me on a much calmer and level plain.I am never alone in this struggle and that makes me feel a tad better.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
Regarding my SSA struggles,I was again tempted to masturbate during the wee early morning hours when I was awakened by yet another erection.I sat up and proceeded to get out of bed and that is what made the erection start to soften.When my genitals were fully soft,I went back to bed and subsequently back to sleep.For most of the day,since I was at the church picnic,I really didn't have problems with temptation.I simply kept busy with socializing and fellowship with my fellow church congregants and the day was wonderful.It took my mind off of my struggles and it was great.Still,I am asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep on praying for me and also,don't be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two for me in the comments section.Your prayers and your encouraging words both help keep me going in this particular struggle.They also strengthen my determination to overcome this terrible SSA.They also strengthen my motivation to continue in my journey to heal from the unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ