Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and as the afternoon was drawing near,I got dressed up in dress clothes as I was going to meet my job placement counselor at the local Dept. of Labor in my hometown.
When I arrived there,we spent a little over half and hour looking over many possibilities.Most of them required experience in the fields that they had and others required college degrees.After that,she advised me top pick up a few job applications on the way home and fill them out there.I did that as we left the office and I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to pick up a job application each and when I went to two other places,they said that they only took applications online.After making a couple of stops at a couple of local stores,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I had a few peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to tie me over until dinner.After I ate them,I did some more personal PC work and I relaxed for a while until it was time to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I decided to pop a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I relaxed and prepared to retire for the evening.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still,on a daily basis,dealing and struggling with the symptoms of both BPD and Schizophrenia.Today,I wasn't feeling too down.I was up to what I had planned for today.I did feel a little hopeful and optimistic in going to the Dept.of Labor in my hometown to look over the various jobs that they had listed there.I will be turning the applications in hopefully on Monday as tomorrow,there is still a Winter Storm Warning in effect for 24 hours and I don't want to take any chances.I guess that tomorrow,if it really storms as they say it will,I will simply have to stay home and take it easy.I got plenty of movies to watch and I will just relax and watch some.In regards to my SSA struggles,I was out for much of the day and that took my mind off of sexual stuff.Still,the temptations were there,but since I was out for much of the day and kept my mind on other things,they simply faded.Though I did escape today unscathed,there will be tomorrow and the day after that and so on.Tomorrow,since I will be home all day,that provides a perfect opportunity for temptation to come at me when least expected.I will have to work on staying strong and keeping up in prayer to my Heavenly Father when that happens.I need to pray for strength and I need help in staying strong.I have to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I am also asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please keep up in praying for me.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayers and encouraging words.They both help in many ways as prayers and positive verbal encouragement are both very powerful tools.They have much power and can help in more ways than one.My blog gets many visitors,but comments of any kind are rare.I need words of encouragement as much as I need prayers.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep me strong in regards to my determination to overcome SSA and my motivation to continue in my healing journey to heal from these unwanted and unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.Thanks to all of you in advance for both your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,since it is supposed to storming with snow and blowing and drifting snow,I am simply going to stay home and take it easy.I am also going to watch a movie or two during the day.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ