Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed over to the church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
The study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow worshipers,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something that I needed.After that,I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up a couple more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.After that,I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I decided to lay down for a while.I also listened to some music while lying down.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.After that,I relaxed and got ready to retire for the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day as for me,going to church on Sunday morning always makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia.Today,I was feeling pretty down and tired,which is one of the symptoms of BPD,Today was the first time in a long time that I was feeling down and drowsy,though I managed to stay awake and not fall asleep.I went through it much of the day.I even had a cup of hot green tea to try and keep myself awake,but I still remained sleepy.I laid down for about an hour and I did feel a little bit better,though still felt drowsy and down.I am hoping that I will feel better after a good night's sleep tonight and I will be much more up and feeling better tomorrow.I did have a minor fall in regards to my SSA struggles.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals to sexual images of men,but I managed to stop myself before it went way too far.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for falling into sin.I asked him for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I asked for forgiveness because I really felt bad and miserable for sinning.Little by little,I am trying to make frequent prayer a part of my day and life.I am determined to overcome this terrible SSA.I also want to overcome this terrible SSA.The minute that these terrible temptations come around,I need to pray and ask for strength to help me fight and resist them.I need to be tough on myself and I need to start now.I need to start praying and praying really hard whenever these terrible temptations come around.While I work on that,I am again asking that y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need some positive encouragement right now and as usual,prayers.They do help in a lot of ways.They help keep me going and keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please leave me some positive encouragement in the comments section and also,please continue your prayers for me.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my appointment with the nurse practitioner at the local hospital,I have no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ