Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I had some stuff that needed to get done.I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had to go out and do some running.
Originally,I was planning to stay home and hang out as a result of getting some snow and a Lake Effect Snow Advisory for my area.Since we didn't the snow that we were supposed to get overnight and today,I headed out to do some errand running.
I first went to my niece's house to drop off a couple of things.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a few things.After paying for those things.I headed over to a local supermarket to pick up another thing.After paying for that,I headed over to a local Dollar Tree store to pick up two more things.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch a little bot of TV and after that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with BPD/Schizophrenia,which is each and every day.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day today,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.The struggle of this psychiatric double whammy is very complicated in and of itself.Aside from the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD,I also have to endure the hallucinatory affects of Schizophrenia,which consists mostly of hearing things,such as voices and sounds,that other people can't hear,but only I can.At times,the voices call my name or I hear footsteps and when I turn around,there is nobody there.It does make me feel perplexed and confused.The struggle can also be draining emotionally and energy-wise.It also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I also have to put up with and endure the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA struggle.I know that the sexual desires are symbolic of the deeper emotional needs that I have as a male as every male has the same emotional needs.The thing is that I need to get them fulfilled authentically because sexual activity is not the answer to getting them fulfilled.The thing with the "Homosexual/Gay" persuasion is that those needs are sexual and that it is only love that you're getting with the sexual aspect of it.This happens to be a lie as all other statements that they make as excuses to justify their actions are lies.The Holy Bible condemns the sexual activity between two members of the same gender.I just want to get my needs fulfilled authentically and work to do what is right in the eyes of my Heavenly Father through his sacred word the Holy Bible.Today,in regards to temptations,I escaped today as I kept busy by staying out and about and keeping my mind on other things.Still,as usual,I am asking that y'all who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me.I also ask that you leave an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both of these things daily and weekly.They both help in a lot of ways.It shows that I am not alone in the SSA struggle and also,they also help keep me going.They also help to keep both my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ