Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and I headed over to pick my father up for church.He called me as I was getting out of bed and left a message on the voice-mail and before I jumped into the shower,he called again and I said that I would be on my way soon.I picked him up and we headed for church for the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
The study class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship with my fellow congregants,my father and I headed straight home.
After dropping off my father,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I quickly got out of my suit and into my sweatsuit.I fixed myself a couple of peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for lunch.After eating them,I quickly did my personal PC work.After that was done,I got dressed into casual clothes and I went to see a movie at the local bargain cinema.
I enjoyed the movie and after picking up a couple of things at a local supermarket,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into a sweatsuit and I put the stuff that I bought away.I also heated up a light dinner in the microwave and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still in my daily struggle against the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory affects of Schizophrenia.I am still in therapy for that and I am still taking my medication as directed.While I am still doing those latter things,which do help,I still go through the ups and downs of the emotional roller coaster ride.I also still go through hallucinations where I hear things that nobody else hears,such as voices calling my name or hearing footsteps and other sorts of sounds.It is a very difficult struggle that I go through in regards to the psychiatric double whammy that I have.Last night,while sitting in a chair,I prayed to my Heavenly Father.I prayed by handing my SSA struggle over to him.In the name of his son Jesus Christ,I asked him to help me feel whole and to make me whole.I also asked him to help me in my healing from this terrible emotional condition.I also asked him to help me become the man that he intended and wants me to be.I prayed to my Heavenly Father concerning these things for a little over ten minutes and after I was finished,I felt really good.It also made me feel better.Before I turned in for the evening,I did ask my Heavenly Father for strength to help me fight and resist the temptation to manipulate my genitals for the purpose of getting them near/fully erect and/or to the point of orgasm and stopping.Today,though I was tempted to masturbate an erection during the wee early morning hours,it wasn't that bad.I simply started to get out of bed and that made the erection soften.I spent most of the day outside of home and that was great.I am again asking that my fellow blog followers please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive verbal encouragement.I still need both prayerful and positive verbal support.I need both of these things.Please do both of these things for me.I would really appreciate that.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayers and continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ