Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
Firstly,I spent a few minutes with my father and after we talked some,I headed out to do some stuff that I had planned.
I went back that AMVETS thrift store in the next county to pick up some more stuff.After paying for those things,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the stuff that I bought away and I relaxed and I did some more personal PC work.
After eating,I decided to watch a little bit of TV and after that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing with everything that I struggle with.I struggle with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory affects of Schizophrenia.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be from day to day,or at other times,from minute/moment to minute/moment within the same day.If having BPD wasn't enough,the hallucinatory affects of Schizophrenia makes it really difficult for me.At times,I hear things that nobody else hears,such as voices calling my name,footsteps while I am walking and when I turn to see,there is nobody there.At times,this really drains me energy-wise and also,it can be emotionally draining.If having that psychiatric double whammy wasn't bad enough,I also have SSA and this morning,I gave into the temptation to masturbate when sexual images of men clouded my mind and I gave into the temptation.I did ask my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ and I did feel better after doing so.The thing is that I still have to work on staying tough with myself as I don't want to let the unnatural sexual desires that I have own me and take over my whole being.I don't want to let the unnatural sexual desires that I have own me.I have to let them know that I own them and not let them own me.I now have to really start working hard on this thing.I need to really start to pray regularly and keep it up.I really need all the strength that I can get.I also need all the prayerful support that I can get.I also need all the positive verbal support that I can get.Fellow blog followers,I again ask that y'all please continue praying for me.I need your prayers desperately.I also ask that none of you be shy and leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I see that my blog gets many visitors and/or curiosity seekers,but comments of any sort are rare.I don't want to feel alone in my SSA struggles as I do when nobody who visits leaves me any encouraging comments.Your prayers and positive verbal encouragement are both very powerful tools.They help keep me going in this particular struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.They also both show that I am not alone in this particular struggle and that does make me feel a little bit better.Thanks to all of you in advance for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual in the morning and I am also hoping to go to see a movie tomorrow afternoon,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ