Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a wonderful and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I quickly showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up real quickly and headed out the door for church.Today,my father,who is visiting from out of town,asked if he come with me today yesterday and I picked him up and we both went together.We both attended the morning's Holy Bible study class as well.
The class and the worship service were wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,we left and I dropped my father off at the house of one of my nephew's.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit and did my personal PC work.After that,I headed out to run a few errands that needed to be run and I was hoping to visit with a few friends,but I saw that the sky was getting very cloudy with some storm clouds and I decided to head straight home just in case if a storm was coming.
When I got home,I put the stuff away that I bought and after that,I relaxed and did a little reading.
After eating,I popped a DVD into my DVD player and watched it.I relaxed the rest of the evening.Overall,a wonderful and eventful day,as for me,going to church on Sunday makes the day eventful.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle with the symptoms of BPD and it's accompanying emotional roller coaster ride.I also have to deal and struggle with the symptoms of Schizophrenia at the same time.My moods and/or emotions fluctuate when I least expect them to.I also have to put up with hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia as well.This particular struggle also makes my SSA struggles even more difficult.I have to also put up with the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA.I get tempted to act out by fantasies,lusting and to go out to seek out other men for the purpose of indulging in sinful sexual activity with them.I never know when these temptations are going to strike.Regarding the psychiatric double whammy that I have,I am still in therapy and I am still taking my medication as directed.It is just that I have to battle the SSA alongside the psychiatric double whammy that I have.These struggles really stress me out at times and can also drain me emotionally.At times,I feel pretty exhausted as far as emotions go.These struggle never get any easier.At times,as I stated previously,I wish that I didn't have to struggle with SSA nor have the temptations associated with it.I am again asking that all of you who continually follow my blog and read my posts to please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need both prayers and positive verbal encouragement desperately.They both help keep me going in this particular fight and struggle.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue to pray for me and please leave me some words of positive encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide,
As for tomorrow,since it will rain tomorrow,I am just going to stay home and relax and take it easy.
That was my day today and my hopes for the ahead.FJ