Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day.
I first went to my usual Thursday morning spirituality group,which went wonderfully well.After it was over,I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after that,I headed over to a local supermarket to turn in all the bottles and cans that I had collected that had accumulated in my back seat.After that,I bought a gallon of milk and after paying for it,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a gas station and got some gas.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the milk in the fridge and I relaxed for a bit as I did feel a little tired.I also did some more personal PC work.
After eating a light dinner,I headed over to my Thursday evening study group and that also went wonderfully well.After that was over,I went to a local supermarket to but one more thing and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed into night clothes and headed for evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggle against the symptoms of BPD and Schizophrenia.I am always battling these things and the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD can be pretty monotonous at times.I also have to put up with the hallucinatory effects of Schizophrenia.If that wasn't bad enough,I also struggle with SSA and those struggles are made even more difficult by the psychiatric double whammy that I have.For much of the day,I kept busy by staying out in the community and that took my mind off of the sexual stuff.But when I was alone at home,the images of men clouded my mind and I lost myself by "near masturbation",but managed to stop myself.I immediately asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ for giving into that particular temptation.I did feel better,but I still need to get tough on myself.I need to start saying "NO!" when these things start coming into my mentality.I need to start really praying and really start asking for strength to fight and resist these urges.I need to stay strong and show the unnatural desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I need to really get tough and say that I won't let them,the unnatural desires,dictate to nor define who I am and who I will be.I am also again asking for prayers by y'all who continually follow my blog and read my posts.I am always in need of prayer.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section.I need both of these things.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continues positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of meeting with the priest that I met with a month ago for another counseling session,I have really nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ