Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the early to mid morning when I was awakened by a phone call.It was the garage that I left a message with on Saturday afternoon concerning the coolant leak and they simply advised me to bring it in and they would see if they could get to it today.After I hung up,I had my usual 2 cups of coffee and I got dressed to drop my car off at the garage and after that,I walked home.
On the way home,I stopped at the drug store to pick up my prescription refills and after paying the co-pay on them,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I sorted out my prescriptions and took one of them.After that,I did my personal PC work and since I was experiencing a very painful headache,I took something for it and I laid down for a while.It took some time,but the headache slowly disappeared.After it was gone,I did a little bit more personal PC work.
I did hear from the garage and they told me that there was a leak in the coolant reservoir system and they would have it fixed before the end of the day,which they did and I told them that I would be by tomorrow to pick it up.I am glad that this is out of the way and I can move on with the rest of the week.
After eating,I decided to do some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily battle and struggle against BPD/Schizophrenia and the worst thing of all,IMHO,SSA.The SSA struggle is never an easy one at all.It gets tougher and tougher each and every day.My struggles with BPD/Schizophrenia make my struggles with SSA even more difficult.I have to put up with the emotional roller coaster ride of BPD and the hallucinatory affects of Schizophrenia.I hear things and sounds that nobody else hears,such as voices and footsteps.Whenever I hear these things,I turn around to see who might be there,but see nobody or anything.At times,the voices that I hear,which I think could be Satan and/or his minions,telling me to play with myself to anything sexual having to do with men coming to my mind.I hear them all the time and I do give into them at times,though I know that I should pray for strength to fight and resist these urges.I am still working on making frequent prayer a part of my life.I know that it isn't easy,but I am working on it.I need prayers right now as I am really getting tempted to act out on the unnatural sexual desires that I have that are connected with this terrible SSA that I struggle with.Please continue praying for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional period.I need prayers right now.I also need some positive verbal encouragement.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of doing some shopping and picking up something from my nephew's house,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ