Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a very good and eventful day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I got dressed up in a suit and phoned my sister so she could take me to church for both the morning's Holy Bible study class and the worship service afterwards.
The study class and the worship service were both wonderful.After some wonderful fellowship,I called my sister to pick me up,which she did and we headed straight home.
When I got into the house,I got out of my suit and into a sweatsuit.I had a light lunch and I did my personal PC work.After that was done,I headed upstairs to do some more cleaning up around my old room.I did get the hallway upstairs cleaned up of all the paper residue that was on the floor and that was all that I did.I relaxed and enjoyed some music and after that,I decided to head back downstairs and do some more personal PC work.I also prepared my evening meal while doing so.
After eating,I put a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a very good and eventful day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my usual daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and the terrible SSA struggle.I never know how my moods and/or emotions will be.The psychiatric double whammy that I have also makes my SSA struggles difficult.Today,I did give into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men did cloud my mind.I managed to stop myself before it went too far and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for sinning against him.I asked him for this in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I am still working on making frequent prayer a part of my life.I need to work on habitually asking my Heavenly Father for strength to fight and resist these terrible temptations that keep coming at me from all sides.I need to get tough on myself.I need to start doing this regularly.I need strength within my weakness.I have to start praying incessantly and I need to make it regular.While I am working on this,I am again asking that all of you who follow my blog and read my posts to please keep praying for me and also,don't be shy and leave me some words of positive encouragement.I need both of these things.They both help keep me going.They also help keep both my determination and motivation strong.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some words of positive encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of hoping to get my car looked at tomorrow,I have nothing planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ