Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I wok up in the mid morning and I showered.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast and my usual 2 cups of coffee.After breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed to proceed with the rest of the day as I had a few things planned.
I first went to the garage to pick up my car and I set out to get what I had to get done accomplished.
I first went to the bank to withdraw some money and after that,I headed home to register some of the bills at the Where's George site.After that,I went back out to do what I had to do.
I first had lunch at a local pizzeria.After that,I went to the local K-Mart to buy something that I needed.After that,I headed over to the local Super Wal-Mart to buy some groceries and after that,I headed over to another local supermarket to pick up a few other things.After that,I headed over to the place of business of a friend of mine to drop off the last payment that I owed him on something and after picking up a used vinyl album and paying for it,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put the groceries away and I prepared my evening meal.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still dealing and struggling with the symptoms of BPD/Schizophrenia and the difficult SSA struggle that I am going through at the same time.I fell again today when I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals until I ejaculated and yes,I was fantasizing and lusting after other men while doing so.I really felt miserable after sinning and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and I asked in the name of his son Jesus Christ to be forgiven.I prayed real hard and after I was finished,I felt better.I really need to get tough with myself here.I can't keep falling into sin and asking my Heavenly Father to continue forgiving me.I have to work on not falling into habitual sin and habitual asking for forgiveness.I need to get tough with myself.I need to start praying when these urges come around and I need to pray really hard for strength to help me fight and resist these urges.I am serious that I want to heal from this terrible SSA.I am also serious about wanting to overcome it.Please pray for me as I really need some prayers right now.I need them desperately.I also need some words of positive encouragement right now.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some encouraging words in the comments section.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ