Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had a couple cups of coffee.I was still feeling a little bit drowsy trying to be fully awake.I did lay back down for about a half hour and when I got up again,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After I was done eating breakfast,I did my personal PC work and I got dressed and was hoping to get out to Best Buy in another area within the county that I live,but the cold snowy day made me change plans.I simply went out to the local Super Wal-Mart to pick up a small thing that I needed.After paying for that,I headed to a nearby gas station to get some gas and after that,I headed over to a local pizzeria to pick up a few slices of pizza to tie me over until dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I changed back into my sweatsuit and enjoyed my slices of pizza.After eating them,I did some more personal PC work and when that was done,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating dinner,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I did some more personal PC work.I then made plans for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA.Today,I was tempted during the early morning hours upon getting out of bed to indulge in fantasies and lusting with various sexual images of men and to manipulate my genitals to these various sexual images.I immediately threw the temptation on my Heavenly Father and asked for strength in the name of his son Jesus Christ to help me fight and resist these urges,which were very overwhelming.I prayed real hard and left nothing out.I poured out my soul and asked for that strength to help me fight and resist these terrible temptations.After praying,I felt much stronger and the temptation was reduced to nil.I went on throughout the day with no worries.I stayed out in the community for much of the day and that took my mind off of those terrible and unclean images.It was wonderful to be out and about for only a short time in the community,though it was bitterly cold and there was snow falling and blowing everywhere around.Fellow blog followers,though I am trying to get my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ more involved in my struggles by continuing to pray for strength,I am again asking that y'all continue praying for me as I am still going through a rough time.I also ask that y'all to please leave me an encouraging word or two in the comments section.I need both prayerful and continuous positive verbal support day in and day out.It helps keep me going and also,it helps strengthen my self confidence and self esteem.Please continue praying for me and also,please leave me some positive verbal encouragement.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I have made no plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ