Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had 2 cups of coffee.After having my coffee,I showered quickly.After my shower,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed and I quickly did my personal PC work.When that was done,I headed over to my appointment with the priest.
The meeting with the priest went great.After our talk,I stopped and had a sandwich at a nearby McDonald's.After that,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped at a local Dollar Tree store to pick up something for dinner.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I put what I bought in its proper place and I did some more personal PC work.After that,I took something for a headache that I had and I relaxed for a bit until the headache was gone.
After eating,I was hoping to go to my Friday night Celebrate Recovery group,but was feeling dizzy from the headache that I had.I chose to stay home and relax.I listened to a little bit of Christian music and simply prayed for relief.I also did some more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still in my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult of the two.Though it is,I must say that today,I had no troubles with temptation.I simply went forward with my day and I had no problems with any sexual images of men crossing my mind.The talk with the priest and just being out in the community really helped take my mind off of these things.It was really wonderful.While I escaped today unscathed,there is still tomorrow and the days after that.It is not that I am worried or anxious about tomorrow and the days after that.It is just that I have to stay on guard and be watchful as temptation can strike when least expected.I have to keep in mind that Satan and his minions can bring on temptations anytime and knowing that we are imperfect,Satan and his minions can use human imperfection to bring out the worst in me and I have to keep on remembering that.I need to stay strong and stand tall.I need to keep going to my Heavenly Father in prayer and ask him for strength to help me fight and resist these urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I need to tell these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I also need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I am not going to let them define who I am nor dictate to me how I will be and act.I also have to keep in mind that the sexual activity between two members of the same gender is NOT approved of by my Heavenly Father.His sacred word,the Holy Bible,says in it's own words that this type of thing is wrong,inappropriate,degrading,detestable,obscene and sinful.Fellow blog followers,please continue to keep me in your prayers as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I am also still struggling and I need prayers by everyone who follows my blog and reads the posts.I also need some positive verbal encouragement in the comments section as well.I need both prayerful and positive verbal support each and every day.I also need both of these things to reaffirm me that I am not alone in this particular struggle because when I get no comments in the comments section,I feel alone.Please don't be shy and leave me some positive verbal encouragement alongside your prayerful support for me.I want to heal and overcome Homosexuality/SSA and I need all the prayerful and positive verbal support that I can get.Thanks in advance to all of you for your prayers and your continued positive verbal encouragement.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for the weekend,with the exception of church on Sunday as usual,I have no other plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the weekend ahead.FJ