Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty fair day today.
Today,I woke up in the mid morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I quickly did my personal PC work and after that was done,I did some much needed cleaning up around the house and after that,I relaxed and did a little bit more personal PC work.
I stayed home for the day as there was rain for much of the day.I relaxed and took it easy and later on,I started to prepare my evening meal.
After eating,I watched some TV and I did some more personal PC work.I also enjoyed a little bit of music.Later on,I started to prepare for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty fair day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
Tonight,I am now feeling much better.I am no longer in the dark depression that I was for much of last week.Yesterday,the anniversary of my mother's passing came and went.I was depressed and didn't feel much like myself,but I stayed the course and now,I am feeling much better as far as my emotions go.I kept on it and hung in there and now,I am feeling a lot better.
However,though I am feeling better as far as my emotional make-up goes,I did fall into sin today.I gave into the temptation to manipulate my genitals and yes,sexual images of men clouded my mind as I did this,which led to fantasizing and lusting after those images.I wound up masturbating the rest of the way.After it was over,I washed my hands and I asked my Heavenly Father to forgive me for my sins in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I poured everything out and I left out nothing.I really felt miserable for falling into sin.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I told my Heavenly Father everything and when I was finished praying,I felt better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven for my sins today.I still need to work on getting tough with myself.I need to show these unnatural sexual desires that I have that I own them and not the other way around.I can't let these unnatural sexual desires continue to have a hold of me.I have to show them that I am stronger than they are,even in my inherent imperfection and weakness.I can't keep on giving into these terrible desires and repenting each time.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.Your support,both prayerful and positive verbal,really matters and is also very important to me.I need to be shown that I am not alone in any of my struggles.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.Thanks in advance to y'all for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,I haven't made any plans.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ