Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and I had my usual 2 cups of coffee.While having my coffee,I watched a little TV and after that,I showered.When I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast and after that,I did my personal PC work.When I was finished with my PC work,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and I watched it.After that,I headed out to do a little bit of shopping and after that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I started to prepare my evening meal and I also did a little bit more personal PC work.
After eating,I popped a DVD into the DVD player and watched it.After that,I did a little bit more personal PC work.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
While my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward,I am still going through my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is my most difficult struggle.That gets too apparent day in and day out every day.Today,likewise with today,I was overwhelmed by temptations.I was tempted to act out with fantasies and lusting after other men and to also manipulate my genitals.It was tough fighting and resisting these terrible unnatural urges that were overwhelming me.These urges really get stronger every time resistance is put up.I went to my Heavenly Father and asked him to give me the strength to help me fight and resist these terrible urges in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed and didn't cease until the urges were completely gone.When I was finished praying,I felt better and much stronger.Now,I need ti work on asking for strength daily from my Heavenly Father whenever these urges come around.I need and have to show my Heavenly Father that I am very and totally serious about wanting to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.I hate finding members of my own gender sexually attractive and I also hate that I struggle with this terrible condition.I want to heal from and overcome this terrible SSA.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need both your prayerful and positive verbal support daily and often.When I don't get any positive verbal support in the comments section,I feel alone and lonely in this particular struggle.I need your positive verbal support to help keep me going and hanging in there.Your positive verbal support helps reaffirm and reassure me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.I also need your prayerful support as well.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of church as usual,I have nothing else planned.But I Hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ