Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I had a pretty good day today.
Today,I woke up in the early morning and had my usual 2 cups of coffee.After my coffee,I showered quickly and when I was finished,I had my usual quick breakfast.After breakfast,I got dressed up in dress clothes and I headed out to the job placement agency to sign a job application that my job placement counselor/coach filled out on my behalf and also said that she would turn it in for me on my behalf.After that,I headed straight home to change into casual clothes and I headed over to a local kitchen to have lunch and after I was finished,I headed for home.
On the way home,I stopped to see how a friend of mine was doing and after a few minutes with him,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I did my personal PC work and relaxed for much of the day.I also watched a DVD that I popped into the DVD player.
I decided to eat out tonight.A local church in the area near my house was having a free dinner night and I headed over there.The food was great and the people I met there were wonderful.After I was finished,I stopped at a local 7-11 to pick up some cookies.After that,I headed straight home.
When I got home,I relaxed and watched a little TV.I also did some more PC work.I later prepared for my evening retirement.Overall,a pretty good day.I also managed to get some recommended Holy Bible reading done as well.
My rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.I am still going through my daily struggles against BPD/Schizophrenia and SSA,which is the most difficult of my struggles.Today,though it is painful and shameful for me to admit this,I did give into temptation by looking up online porn and also,I manipulated my genitals to what I was watching.I stopped myself and I immediately went to my Heavenly Father in prayer and asked him to forgive me in the name of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed real hard and I left nothing out.I admitted everything to my Heavenly Father and when I was finished,I felt much better as I knew and truly believed that I was forgiven.That slip was one slip too many.I need to start buckling down and stop these things.I am really serious about wanting to heal and overcome SSA.I can't keep giving into these things.I still need to work on getting tough with myself and showing this terrible SSA that I own it and not the other way around.Fellow blog followers and readers,please continue to pray for me as I am still going through a very difficult emotional time.I also ask that you leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I still need your positive verbal support as much as I need your prayerful support.Your support helps keep me going.It also reaffirms and reassures me that I am not alone in this particular struggle.Please continue to keep me in your prayers and also,please don't forget to leave me some positive verbal support.Thanks in advance to all of you for your continued prayerful and positive verbal support.Thanks also to both my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ for everything that they do and provide.
As for tomorrow,with the exception of my usual Celebrate Recovery group meeting tomorrow evening,I have nothing else planned.But I hope that whatever I choose to do gives me positive benefits.
That was my day today and my hopes and plans for the day ahead.FJ