Tonight,my rocky road to recovery continues moving forward.
Today was a work day,which went well.After it was over,I did a little shopping at a local Dollar General store.I headed for home after that.
I relaxed when I got home and I did my personal PC work.I later had a light meal and did a little bit more personal PC work before retiring for the evening.A very good day overall.
Earlier in the day,I gave into temptation to fantasize and lust after other men.Yes,I did and I also masturbated to these images.I felt so ashamed at this.I did ask my Heavenly Father to forgive my sins and begged for his mercy for the sake of his son Jesus Christ.I prayed long and hard and though I do believe that I am forgiven,I still felt the guilt and shame for giving into these terrible temptations.
I don't want to feel guilt and shame.I want to feel better and totally believe that I am forgiven for my sins without still feeling guilt and shame.
I also don't want to give into these terrible temptations anymore,but I keep giving in to them.I don't know why.
I keep asking myself "What's Wrong With Me?"
I also ask myself "Why can't I stop giving in to these terrible temptations?"
I also ask myself "Why do I keep giving in to these terrible temptations?"
I need help,but it seems that nobody wants to help me.I get a lot of visitors and readers,but nobody leaves me any comments.They also don't tell me that they're praying for me.
Please let me know that you're praying for me.Please leave me some positive verbal support in the comments section.I need some encouragement and spiritual upbuilding.I also need to know that none of you are giving up on me.I have been baring all here,but nobody makes any comments or anything.
Please let me know that you're all still praying for me.I also would appreciate some positive verbal support and spiritual upbuilding.
I also want to know that none of you are giving up on me.I need to know these things.Please say something that I could use.Thanks to all of you and Thanks to my Heavenly Father and his son Jesus Christ.
For this weekend,all I have is church on Sunday as usual.I have nothing else planned.FJ