Tonight,I am feeling a little bit better that I have been feeling.I had a pretty fair day today.
First off,I ran a few errands.I had to pick up a few things for the home and I also picked up a couple of things for myself.It was really neat.The day was also wonderful weatherwise.It was warm and mild but there was still a little bit of a chill in the air.But I didn't let it stop me from enjoying the day or running the errands.I had a lot to run and I wanted to get them done.
The first thing that I did was that I had to buy a few food items for the home.I also bought a box of cereal for myself.After that,I bought a bag of zesty salsa tortilla Combos and a box of Sno-Caps.I headed straight home after that and that is where I stayed.
When I got home,I ate a light dinner and I also did some last minute personal PC work.It was a pretty fair day and I am glad to have gotten out and did some things.
Last night,my night of entertaining the crowd went great.It was wonderful to be among my friends again after over two months of being away from them.I had a blast entertaining the crowd and they enjoyed the fact that I had returned.It was really awesome to be there and I am looking forward to next week.I am hoping that next Saturday night will be as wonderful as last night was.I feel much better now that I sang for my friends again.
As for the rest of the night,I am just going to stay home and take it easy.I will be going out to have a drink again on Sunday's with my friends starting next Sunday.For tonight,I am going to take it easy.
Despite all the things that I did,I still felt somewhat down.I suffered another relapse.I masturbated.It all started with me playing with my genitals and when I reached the moment of orgasm,I masturbated until ejaculation.I felt really depressed after that.Even after I asked the creator to forgive me,my feelings still didn't change.I still felt down and guilty for that.I am hoping that these feelings will disappear.I need prayers really desperately.I am hoping that people pray for me and hope that I am restored.I am sick of struggling with SSA alone and I would appreciate some support from people,especially from other men,out there.Please help me.Thanks.
Tomorrow is my day off.I hope that the day goes well.I do have to go to my mechanic's garage to pay him the money that I promised to pay him each week,which is the only thing on my agenda for tomorrow.
That was my weekend and my hopes for the start of the new week ahead.FJ