Tonight,I am feeling pretty good.I had a pretty good day today.
The laundry pick-up went smoothly.There was no messes to clean up,which really made me feel good.After dropping off the laundry,sorting it out and having lunch at work,I headed for home.
On the way home,I had to stop at my mechanic's garage.I did this because my BRAKE light kept coming on while I was applying the brake while stopping or slowing down with it turning off after a few seconds of driving.On the way,I had to shift into park while waiting at a traffic light so I would not have to see that red colored light on the dash.When I got there,I told my mechanic and he topped off my brake fluid reservoir with brake fluid and I was on my way.
I also had to stop at the bank to withdraw some money for my mom so the water bill can be paid and I also withdrew some money for myself so I can pay the car insurance when it's due.I headed straight home after that.
When I got home,I put my PJ's back on and tried to take a nap.I slept for a little over 1/2 an hour before getting back up.I also relaxed on the bed and read while I listened to a little bit of music for a while before dinner.
After eating a light dinner,I decided to do some last minute personal PC work.I am now caught up and that is great.
Regarding SSA,I did have a brief episode.While laying down trying to take a nap,the images were creeping back in.It also made me want to manipulate my sexuality with the images.I did for a short time but I managed to stop myself.I still felt terrible about that but I am feeling better.I need to find some alternative ways of relaxation to try to get rid of the sexual images of men that creep up on me when I least expect them.I have also discovered that as a result of me not going out due to me not having a vehicle,my mind has been pretty preoccupied with sex,including where I am craving to act out and wanting to perform sexual favors for members of my own gender.I need to get my mind off of sex somehow.I also need to work on my emotional make-up,including my anger issues so I don't think about sex with other men so much.I need to keep remembering that men are brothers and that only real & Healthy male love is brotherly love with no sex included.I need to keep thinking of that and not on sex.If anyone out there has any ideas,please share.Thanks.
Tomorrow is a work day.I am hoping that the shift goes well.I also have to go and pay the water bill for the month after work before heading for home.After that,I might just take it easy for the rest of the day.
That was my day today and my hopes for the day ahead.FJ